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The Best Of Both Worlds by Judy Burnette
The best of both worlds
That is what you said;
Yet if that statement is true
Why do I feel so bad?
I want some things I cannot have
To be someplace I cannot be;
There is sadness, memories, some tears
Deep inside of me.
I want to be with you
To see you standing outside my door;
Will I self destruct
By always wanting more?
Wednesday, November 30, 2005
My Heart, My Fiance, My Wife-To-Be
Well guys, this is my beloved and beautiful fiance. We have been together for 4 years coming to 5 years and I have to say it has not an easy journey.
In love, there are bound to be conflicts and arguments are definitely unavoidable.
But thanks to this sweet lady, our relationship is still going on strong. It has not been easy for her, having to understand my job and also sacrifice alot of things since I started working.
But a great lover that she is, she understands everything that I asked of her. To my deareast ayang, I know it has not been an easy ride for us but I appreciate all that you have done for me for the past few days. It really means alot to me. I know that I might have hurt you in one way or another but please believe me when I say that my love for you just keep going stronger and stronger with every breathe that I take. I just see you as one person now and that is my wife.
I know it would not be easy either but I will do all I can to make you happy and also make this relationship works. I nearly lose you once and I don't ever want to lose you ever. I love you.
~ dengan atau tanpamu ~ 11:47 PM
The Reason
I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found out a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
That's why I need you to hear
I've found out a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is You
I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found out a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
I've found out a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you
~ dengan atau tanpamu ~ 11:09 PM
A Sharpshooter In The Making
Finally, I managed to get a marksman for my shooting and what a relief it was to finally get my shooting over and done with. I was kinda nervous before the shoot and the stupid stomachache was not helping at all. Funny thing was me, Shahril and Razaly were all having stomachaches. Haha but what the heck. It's over now anyway.
I went to sleep right after that and woke up ard 7pm. I got to work on my blog design and took 6 hours to finish it. What an idiot I am! Well, it was not as easy as I had imagined. Not a great design but I think its ok for a start. I shall be working on it when I have the time.
Nothing much to say today except that I am really gonna have a nice sleep now. The weather is great, how I wish I am at the beach now. U see, I love to be at the beach at night when it is raining. U might think that it's a stupid thing to do but once a while its really fun. U guys should really try it someday. But of course dun forget to bring me along yar!
Ok gonna get to bed now. My dearest pillow is calling me. Hold on honey, i'm coming!!
~ dengan atau tanpamu ~ 2:25 AM
Monday, November 28, 2005
A Great Win
Woke up today at 3pm! Haha, it was a nice sleep guys. For those who have to work on a Monday morning with all the Monday Blues, u'd better get jealous. Anyway, it was another remarkable win for Man Utd against West Ham early this morning and i'm a very happy man indeed. I dunno what to do after this cause i've got about another 2 hrs before I have to get ready for work. I might just be planning on how to design my own blogskins. Have no idea how that works though. Hmph...
~ dengan atau tanpamu ~ 3:50 PM
Sunday, November 27, 2005
The Typical Me!
I got up this morning feeling rather tired after all the fun I had from the Perjumpaan Hari Raya I went to last night. I didn't think I would enjoy such a thing but I went home all happy and cheerful. Then again, knowing that i'll be facing a long day at work, i'm so not looking forward for work. As soon as I knew what I would be doing for the day, I was all smiling again. I knew it was gonna be an easy day for me and yes it went well. I joked alot today, smiling and laughing. Again, I was back getting to my old typical, nonsensical self. I got real energetic after breakfast and started to 'entertain' my friends especially Dzul and Shahril. I had fun but I felt bad after one of the jokes, I accidentally made Dzul dropped his new handphone. He was like saying that the phone has scratches and is not functioning well after that. I really felt bad even though I knew he was joking. Well, sorry bro.
After work, me, Dzul, Shahril n Hirman went for dinner. I asked for something really spicy and boy do I regret that! I had tears in my eyes after having a hard time finishing the food..It was soo damn spicy but I enjoyed it anyway. I really had fun at dinner. We took a lot of photos together and I had lots and lots of fun. You guys are just great man! Even though we like to be sarcastic and love to 'colour' each other, I know that it was all jokes and stuffs and at the end of the day we are still dearest of friends.
~ dengan atau tanpamu ~ 10:46 PM
Friday, November 25, 2005
Another wet night
Got back from work and boy am I tired! I got wet in the rain during work due to some idiots! These idiots just doesn't know how to put their brains into good use. Sometimes I feel that animals are much better than them. Finally I got my long awaited meal at 7am. Just imagined that I have not eaten since 2pm yesterday and it was only until 15 hours later did I manage to eat again. I was dragging on and on to Sudirman, Razaly and Dzul about how hungry I was but sadly nothing could be done due to unforeseen circumstances.
Anyway, after all that shit, I got back to station a happy man! Had fun with my friends during work and got a really nice breakfast. So when Shahril and me finally can go home, things went wrong. One of the tyres on Shahril's bike got punctured and we had to go home in a cab. As soon, as I got home, I went straight to bed. Oh heaven, that was nice! The warmth of my mattress and pillows got me to sleep within seconds. Are they magical or what?
Got up at 6pm and got a hair cut. Hmm, I do look better now. No more centre parting guys! Haha, yeah check out my new hair style. Nothing special though but I do looooook good. Well, I know self praise is a national disgrace but hey since no one wants to praise me, heck i'm gonna do it!
Lazed around at home till its time again to go to work. Hope I can have fun again..
~ dengan atau tanpamu ~ 8:43 PM
Dengan Atau Tanpamu - Exist
Tika ku disentuh cinta
Cinta melirikan lara
Gerah kerinduan sendiri tanpamu
Kadang mengusutkan jiwaku
Namun aku tetap tegar jua
Lalu ku tempuhi semuanya
Cinta luhur digelap menjadi cahaya
Dengan mu hidup lebih bermakna
Keyakinan ku pun semakin bertambah
Semakin mudah kaki mengatur langkah
Rasa tepatnya pilih hidup bersama dengan mu
Sebelum terjatuh sakit yang tak tertanggung
Atau kemungkinan langit esok mendung
Dibawah langit yang terbuka
Ku mohon rahmat Tuhan yang Esa
Kalau di takdirkan aku harus berhadapan
Berakhirnya suatu ikatan
Akan aku relakan
Pada perpisahan
Nyawa berpisah dari badan
Kalau ditakdirkan berakhir dipertengahan
Suratan sebuah percintaan
Sanggup aku menahan
Pedih perpisahan
Walau menghiris perasaan
Sakitnya biar aku rasakan
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Terbuku dikalbumu
Apakah erti linang airmata di pipimu
Ucapkanlah padaku
Tak bisa kurungkainya
Rahsia yang kau pendam itu
Aku hanya menduga
Tidak mampu merasa
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Pengorbanan yang kau lakukan
Untuk dewasakan ku
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Untuk dewasakanku
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Takkan terlerai kasih
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