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The Best Of Both Worlds by Judy Burnette
The best of both worlds
That is what you said;
Yet if that statement is true
Why do I feel so bad?
I want some things I cannot have
To be someplace I cannot be;
There is sadness, memories, some tears
Deep inside of me.
I want to be with you
To see you standing outside my door;
Will I self destruct
By always wanting more?
Monday, December 26, 2005
Changes In Life
Life changes its beauty all the time
Sometimes it's a shade, sometimes life is sunlight
Live every moment here to your heart's content
The time that is here may not be tomorrow
One who loves you whole-heartedly
It is difficult meet that person
If there is someone like that somewhere
That person is more beautiful than all
Grab onto that person's hand
He or she may not be so gracious tomorrow
Live every moment here to your heart's content
The time that is here may not be tomorrow
Taking the shadow of your eyelashes, when someone comes near
You try to reason with your crazy heart
Your heart just goes on beating
But think, that which is here now
That story may not be here tomorrow
It was raining cats and dogs and here I am having to wake up for work. Oh boy, this does sucks. My whole family were fast sleeping and the weather was so nice. How I wished I could continue my sleep. Anyway, Shahril picked me up with his car today. I was in an okay mood on my way to work. Got to know my deployment and I was ready for a busy day as it's a holiday. However, at the end of the day, it was a good day after all. I wasn't that busy throughout the day.
Somewhere in between, I spent time with Razaly and Sudirman. Somehow or rather, I wasn't a happy man. Something happened while working which really got me into a bad mood and feeling down for the rest of the day. And for a fact that I know I wouldn't have these times with Razaly and Sudirman anymore certainly doesn't help me at all. I started to think about life and such. Why do we live in the first place when at the end of the day, we are going to die? Why do we love, when at the end of the day that person is going to leave?
I started to think about what I have went through and what I have done since I got into Primary 1. That was basically the time when I started my education. That was also the time where I make a lot of friends, all of whom had the same wishes as me. We planned and promised to be friends forever but when we got to secondary school, all promises were broken. Somewhere in between, when I was in Primary 3, my brother past away. My life started to change dramatically. Gone were the good time where I played soccer with my brother, gone were the time where we wrestled one another and gone were everything. Why did he has to leave if in the first place he was given life? Why do I have to love him so much, if at the end of the day, all is left are memories?
Again, when I got into secondary school, I made several new friends. All of which were very close to me. 2 of them namely Faizal and Fadzil were the closest. After secondary school, we promised to stick with one another even after each of us has our own career. Ever since we started working, each of us has our own responsibilites and commitment until we drifted apart.
Now that I have got a few good friends at work, some are going to leave. And deep in my heart, I know that what i've got left today will eventually go away and things will change again. Does this happen to everyone in life? Why give us tears in the end if in the first place, we had been given laughter? And why give us happiness when at the end of the day, sadness will conquer our life?
~ dengan atau tanpamu ~ 12:28 AM
Dengan Atau Tanpamu - Exist
Tika ku disentuh cinta
Cinta melirikan lara
Gerah kerinduan sendiri tanpamu
Kadang mengusutkan jiwaku
Namun aku tetap tegar jua
Lalu ku tempuhi semuanya
Cinta luhur digelap menjadi cahaya
Dengan mu hidup lebih bermakna
Keyakinan ku pun semakin bertambah
Semakin mudah kaki mengatur langkah
Rasa tepatnya pilih hidup bersama dengan mu
Sebelum terjatuh sakit yang tak tertanggung
Atau kemungkinan langit esok mendung
Dibawah langit yang terbuka
Ku mohon rahmat Tuhan yang Esa
Kalau di takdirkan aku harus berhadapan
Berakhirnya suatu ikatan
Akan aku relakan
Pada perpisahan
Nyawa berpisah dari badan
Kalau ditakdirkan berakhir dipertengahan
Suratan sebuah percintaan
Sanggup aku menahan
Pedih perpisahan
Walau menghiris perasaan
Sakitnya biar aku rasakan
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Terbuku dikalbumu
Apakah erti linang airmata di pipimu
Ucapkanlah padaku
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Aku hanya menduga
Tidak mampu merasa
Sebenar-benar perasaanmu
Pengorbanan yang kau lakukan
Untuk dewasakan ku
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