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The Best Of Both Worlds by Judy Burnette
The best of both worlds
That is what you said;
Yet if that statement is true
Why do I feel so bad?
I want some things I cannot have
To be someplace I cannot be;
There is sadness, memories, some tears
Deep inside of me.
I want to be with you
To see you standing outside my door;
Will I self destruct
By always wanting more?
Sunday, January 01, 2006
A Belated Goodbye
I could not write about this on the day itself as my monitor of about 5 years finally 'died'. As a result, I have to wait until today to get a new monitor. Thanks to Fairus, I got a 19 inch LCD monitor for just $200/- and even though the monitor is 2nd hand, it still look as good as new. Well, knowing Fairus, he is someone who will take good care of his stuff pretty well which is why I do not have to worry about the monitor being dirty and etc. This is what I was going to write on 31/12/05.
It was a busy night for us on the road. It was expected since it was Friday night. Before work, we had some pizza thanks to Sudirman and Razaly. It was their last day in the team and therefore they had decided to treat the team. After briefing, Sudirman and Razaly had to give a speech - that's the team's culture whenever someone is leaving the team or had just join the team. Both tried to add some jokes in their speech but deep inside, I know how they felt. I was sad myself and nearly had tears coming from my eyes. Both of them have played significance part in my life over the past 2 or 3 years. Being my seniors, they impart their knowledge and help me out in times of need. I have to say, I owe a huge part of what I am now in the team thanks to both of them.
After work, all our kakis went to makan at our usual favourite prata shop. This was gonna be the last time Sudirman and Razaly is joining us for breakfast after work. The day had finally come. The moment itself was hard for me to take. I cracked some jokes to hide my true feelings. After breakfast, we headed towards PCC again. It was time to say goodbye. We stood outside the barrier at PCC to shake hands and to give wishes to one another. Inside me, I was crying but I controlled myself. In the moments of sadness, Sudirman even shake my hands twice. He must have forgotten that we had already done so. Well bro, I still owe you big time for the help in the past. Like i've said before, I will never forget that.
When all wishes have been voiced to one another, it was the time to say goodbye. Each go on his own direction and brothers, may we meet again on the same path in the future.
~ dengan atau tanpamu ~ 10:55 PM
Dengan Atau Tanpamu - Exist
Tika ku disentuh cinta
Cinta melirikan lara
Gerah kerinduan sendiri tanpamu
Kadang mengusutkan jiwaku
Namun aku tetap tegar jua
Lalu ku tempuhi semuanya
Cinta luhur digelap menjadi cahaya
Dengan mu hidup lebih bermakna
Keyakinan ku pun semakin bertambah
Semakin mudah kaki mengatur langkah
Rasa tepatnya pilih hidup bersama dengan mu
Sebelum terjatuh sakit yang tak tertanggung
Atau kemungkinan langit esok mendung
Dibawah langit yang terbuka
Ku mohon rahmat Tuhan yang Esa
Kalau di takdirkan aku harus berhadapan
Berakhirnya suatu ikatan
Akan aku relakan
Pada perpisahan
Nyawa berpisah dari badan
Kalau ditakdirkan berakhir dipertengahan
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Terbuku dikalbumu
Apakah erti linang airmata di pipimu
Ucapkanlah padaku
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Tidak mampu merasa
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Untuk dewasakan ku
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