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The Best Of Both Worlds by Judy Burnette
The best of both worlds
That is what you said;
Yet if that statement is true
Why do I feel so bad?
I want some things I cannot have
To be someplace I cannot be;
There is sadness, memories, some tears
Deep inside of me.
I want to be with you
To see you standing outside my door;
Will I self destruct
By always wanting more?
Tuesday, April 18, 2006
Really Low...
Had some problems at home yesterday morning and I snapped. Argued with someone and I was called 'kurang ajar' by that person. Again, I was to be blamed! Why can't people just acknowledged their mistakes and apologise? Why must they always put the blame on others and think that whatever they are doing is right? This has been a big problem in my life right now. I just can't control myself anymore. I just don't have patience anymore. I was asked to apologise to that person. I don't mind saying sorry but what's the point of just saying it if I don't mean it? By saying sorry, it will just make me look like a fool, acknowledging that I was to be blamed and let that person think that it's right? That shouldn't be the way. It will just make them big-headed. Is it so wrong for me to voice out my opinions just to show them what is right and what is wrong?
Another thing happened when I was on my way back from Sim Lim today. The bus was damn crowded. I was sitting at the upper deck. As my bus stop was approaching, I walked towards the steps. As I was approaching, I noticed that the lower deck was crowded too and there were 2 men standing at the steps. The first man that I need to walk pass was a Malay in his late 30s. He didn't have the brains to move aside to allow me to walk down. I had to make a big step to proceed on. The steps were narrow and I lost my balance. As I was regaining my balance, I accidentally elbowed the 2nd man who is a Chinese on his face. It was a hard one. I could tell that the man was fuming. It was an accident and to be honest it wasn't even my fault. They were stupid enough to be standing on the steps when there was clear instructions in the bus saying that no one should be standing on steps. I said sorry but the man's face says it all. He was still angry and looked at me straight into my eyes. I was not happy either and wanted to stare right back at him but I had to alight from the bus. I swear to god if that man had try to find fault with me, I would really retaliate. Why can't people just make good use of their fucking brains for goodness sake?
~ dengan atau tanpamu ~ 8:46 PM
Dengan Atau Tanpamu - Exist
Tika ku disentuh cinta
Cinta melirikan lara
Gerah kerinduan sendiri tanpamu
Kadang mengusutkan jiwaku
Namun aku tetap tegar jua
Lalu ku tempuhi semuanya
Cinta luhur digelap menjadi cahaya
Dengan mu hidup lebih bermakna
Keyakinan ku pun semakin bertambah
Semakin mudah kaki mengatur langkah
Rasa tepatnya pilih hidup bersama dengan mu
Sebelum terjatuh sakit yang tak tertanggung
Atau kemungkinan langit esok mendung
Dibawah langit yang terbuka
Ku mohon rahmat Tuhan yang Esa
Kalau di takdirkan aku harus berhadapan
Berakhirnya suatu ikatan
Akan aku relakan
Pada perpisahan
Nyawa berpisah dari badan
Kalau ditakdirkan berakhir dipertengahan
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Sanggup aku menahan
Pedih perpisahan
Walau menghiris perasaan
Sakitnya biar aku rasakan
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Terbuku dikalbumu
Apakah erti linang airmata di pipimu
Ucapkanlah padaku
Tak bisa kurungkainya
Rahsia yang kau pendam itu
Aku hanya menduga
Tidak mampu merasa
Sebenar-benar perasaanmu
Pengorbanan yang kau lakukan
Untuk dewasakan ku
Pengorbanan yang kau lakukan
Untuk dewasakanku
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Takkan terlerai kasih
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