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The Best Of Both Worlds by Judy Burnette
The best of both worlds
That is what you said;
Yet if that statement is true
Why do I feel so bad?
I want some things I cannot have
To be someplace I cannot be;
There is sadness, memories, some tears
Deep inside of me.
I want to be with you
To see you standing outside my door;
Will I self destruct
By always wanting more?
Friday, August 18, 2006
Going out of my mind soon
People have always asked me. Can you cope with your studies, work, love life as well as family and at the same time not forgetting your friends? My answer to some is to try it out yourself and you will know the answer. It has not been easy and will never be. The demands from my studies and the fact that projects keep coming in, combine with the stress at work sometimes makes me wanna quit. Then again, when I think about my future, about how happy I want my ayang to be and how happy I want my mum to be, all the pain seems to be worthwhile.
I have neglected my friends as well as fiance at times. It's been a long time since I last spend time with my family as well, let alone have long hours on my own doing my favourite things. I jolly well know the fact that I have neglected you guys but what am I suppose to do? I can't give happiness to all at the same time. I had to meet deadlines for my group work and has been sleeping later than usual.
Sometimes I only have about 3 hrs of sleep and had to wake up for work. I had no choice but to neglect some of the dearest people in my life. I tried my very best to spend even the least possible time I can with them but I know it would not be enough. I've been having my problems as well and certain people says that they understand what I am going through perfectly. Well, I don't think so. These people have sacrificed a lot for me and I truly appreciate it and wish that I can repay all this. But circumstances does not allow me to do so now. Maybe, with god's will, I will be able to in the future. Even if its in 3 yrs time, if these people are patient enough, their sacrifices would be worthwhile. Just please don't say that I don't sacrifice enough cause you don't really know what I am going through.
~ dengan atau tanpamu ~ 11:34 PM
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Cinta melirikan lara
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