AKU
The Best Of Both Worlds by Judy Burnette
The best of both worlds
That is what you said;
Yet if that statement is true
Why do I feel so bad?
I want some things I cannot have
To be someplace I cannot be;
There is sadness, memories, some tears
Deep inside of me.
I want to be with you
To see you standing outside my door;
Will I self destruct
By always wanting more?
Friday, October 06, 2006
1 Down, 2 To Go
I finally took my first test after 5 years. It was a nervy moment for me when I reported to school that day. I broke my fast (ate just a bit), prayed Maghrib (to get blessings from Allah) and drove straight to school. Alhamdulilah, the test was not bad. Insya'allah, I will be able to pass. With 1 test down, I am now focusing on 2 major topics which are definitely very much harder. There are like sooo many things to remember. Oh my god! Even a computer will crash storing all those memories!
I had to start preparing for my next 2 papers which will be on 11th and 13th October. I had taken leave to prepare myself. Glad though that my TL understand my position and thanks to some of my colleagues who had to cancel their leave for me. For Chan, I will buy for you one Kopi-O Kao Cina Punya and for Maman boncit ku sayang, I tak panggil u boncit for 1 week k!
Anyway, my preparations for the 2 papers did not start well. I was down with fever and flu 2 days ago. My throat was so bad that I could not talk. I managed to control for the first day but simply couldn't yesterday and had to break my fast at 12 noon when I went to see the doctor as I can't bear the pain in my throat. The doctor wanted to give me MC for my morning shift but I rejected as I did not want to take MC. I then bought bubur (as that was the only thing that I can swallow) to fill my stomach before taking my medications, afterwhich I continued resting. At one point, I had to wake up to go to the toilet and when I spat out my phlegm, I noticed that it contained blood (I know it sounds gross but apa leh buat, tekak ku panas dah!). It must be very bad indeed. I continued taking my medication and went to sleep early.
I woke up this morning for work (even though I was not able to sleep well the previous night) feeling a bit better and decided to fast. It was all good until I spat out my phlegm again. Same thing, contained blood. Lucky thing for me, work was good today (can be managed lah considering only 2 people at the counter). It only started to get worse at 1845hrs (damn! it was near to breaking fast time). I had to lodge a report at that time and the report was only concluded at 1915hrs and even though there was a complt waiting, I had to eat a bit first.
I didn't know what to eat so I asked Dzul to buy for me Prata Cheese. I just swallowed my food as I didn't have any appetite to eat. When I got back to the counter, there were 2 outstanding complts to be served. I was handling a rather long case and only finished my report at 2030hrs. Afterwhich, I went up, got changed and went for de-briefing.
And now here I am, drinking bandung while blogging. I had never like bandung before and have to say that this is the first time that I have drink 2 glasses of bandung consecutively. I don't know why but maybe because it reminded me of my brother. He loved bandung so much and will always asked my mum to make bandung during break fast time in the past. Here's to you bro..Cheers!
~ dengan atau tanpamu ~ 1:02 AM
Dengan Atau Tanpamu - Exist
Tika ku disentuh cinta
Cinta melirikan lara
Gerah kerinduan sendiri tanpamu
Kadang mengusutkan jiwaku
Namun aku tetap tegar jua
Lalu ku tempuhi semuanya
Cinta luhur digelap menjadi cahaya
Dengan mu hidup lebih bermakna
Keyakinan ku pun semakin bertambah
Semakin mudah kaki mengatur langkah
Rasa tepatnya pilih hidup bersama dengan mu
Sebelum terjatuh sakit yang tak tertanggung
Atau kemungkinan langit esok mendung
Dibawah langit yang terbuka
Ku mohon rahmat Tuhan yang Esa
Kalau di takdirkan aku harus berhadapan
Berakhirnya suatu ikatan
Akan aku relakan
Pada perpisahan
Nyawa berpisah dari badan
Kalau ditakdirkan berakhir dipertengahan
Suratan sebuah percintaan
Sanggup aku menahan
Pedih perpisahan
Walau menghiris perasaan
Sakitnya biar aku rasakan
Airmata Ibu - Siti Nurhaliza
Apakah sebenarnya
Terbuku dikalbumu
Apakah erti linang airmata di pipimu
Ucapkanlah padaku
Tak bisa kurungkainya
Rahsia yang kau pendam itu
Aku hanya menduga
Tidak mampu merasa
Sebenar-benar perasaanmu
Pengorbanan yang kau lakukan
Untuk dewasakan ku
Pengorbanan yang kau lakukan
Untuk dewasakanku
Hanya bisa ditangguing oleh hati ibu
Takkan terlerai kasih
Ikatan ini takkan putus
Dan terima segala
Dugaan dan badai yang melanda
Duhai ibu