Wednesday, December 28, 2005
28th December - A Special Date For 3
Today is a date to remember for me and 2 other important woman in my life. For me and my fiance, it marks our 4 years and 11 months anniversary. It has not been a smooth journey but the love that we have for each other are still very strong and I still hope it will remain that way in the future. I know what we have been going through since our engagement is a big test for us and I wish for us to beat the obstacles that we are going to face. Ayang, Happy Anniversary. It has been a wonderful yet challenging journey for me and I will do whatever it takes for us to be together and be happy.
Another person who celebrates this day is my sister - Iffah. She is the one who introduce my ayang to me. Of course, without her, me and Huda would not have got to know each other. Iffah, hoping that you will have a wonderful day today and Happy 23rd Birthday to you. May you have a great year ahead of you and may you find your 'Mr Right'.
~ dengan atau tanpamu ~ 1:55 PM
Tuesday, December 27, 2005
Great Day At Work
It was a perfect day to be doing FRC last night. With Dzul doing the other sector car, it added up to the fun.
However though, something happened at the time we were having supper where I got totally pissed off with someone. But being the quick-witted person that I am, I got back at the person almost instantly. I didn't stop that though. I 'attacked' that person again in the office during de-briefing. I know i'm bad but people, never try to make me mad or cross me cause I will definitely get back at ya.
By the way, I missed the Man Utd match last night due to work and will be missing 2-3 more of their next games as it's shown on days which I have to work. Morons! It's ok though cause Man Utd won the match. Alhamdulilah. But the stupid Chelsea still managed to get all 3 points. They nearly drew with Fulham but got a last minute goal I think. Damn Chelsea!
After work, we went to makan and as usual, I ate my Omelette without Onions. Yummy! Now that i'm back home, i'm gonna have my long awaited sleep. Damnz i'm tired.. *Yawn*
~ dengan atau tanpamu ~ 10:46 AM
Monday, December 26, 2005
Changes In Life
Life changes its beauty all the time
Sometimes it's a shade, sometimes life is sunlight
Live every moment here to your heart's content
The time that is here may not be tomorrow
One who loves you whole-heartedly
It is difficult meet that person
If there is someone like that somewhere
That person is more beautiful than all
Grab onto that person's hand
He or she may not be so gracious tomorrow
Live every moment here to your heart's content
The time that is here may not be tomorrow
Taking the shadow of your eyelashes, when someone comes near
You try to reason with your crazy heart
Your heart just goes on beating
But think, that which is here now
That story may not be here tomorrow
It was raining cats and dogs and here I am having to wake up for work. Oh boy, this does sucks. My whole family were fast sleeping and the weather was so nice. How I wished I could continue my sleep. Anyway, Shahril picked me up with his car today. I was in an okay mood on my way to work. Got to know my deployment and I was ready for a busy day as it's a holiday. However, at the end of the day, it was a good day after all. I wasn't that busy throughout the day.
Somewhere in between, I spent time with Razaly and Sudirman. Somehow or rather, I wasn't a happy man. Something happened while working which really got me into a bad mood and feeling down for the rest of the day. And for a fact that I know I wouldn't have these times with Razaly and Sudirman anymore certainly doesn't help me at all. I started to think about life and such. Why do we live in the first place when at the end of the day, we are going to die? Why do we love, when at the end of the day that person is going to leave?
I started to think about what I have went through and what I have done since I got into Primary 1. That was basically the time when I started my education. That was also the time where I make a lot of friends, all of whom had the same wishes as me. We planned and promised to be friends forever but when we got to secondary school, all promises were broken. Somewhere in between, when I was in Primary 3, my brother past away. My life started to change dramatically. Gone were the good time where I played soccer with my brother, gone were the time where we wrestled one another and gone were everything. Why did he has to leave if in the first place he was given life? Why do I have to love him so much, if at the end of the day, all is left are memories?
Again, when I got into secondary school, I made several new friends. All of which were very close to me. 2 of them namely Faizal and Fadzil were the closest. After secondary school, we promised to stick with one another even after each of us has our own career. Ever since we started working, each of us has our own responsibilites and commitment until we drifted apart.
Now that I have got a few good friends at work, some are going to leave. And deep in my heart, I know that what i've got left today will eventually go away and things will change again. Does this happen to everyone in life? Why give us tears in the end if in the first place, we had been given laughter? And why give us happiness when at the end of the day, sadness will conquer our life?
~ dengan atau tanpamu ~ 12:28 AM
Friday, December 23, 2005
Khushiyan Aur Gham (Happiness and Sadness)
This is the English translation for this song from 'Mann'. While reading the lyrics, enjoy the song guys. A very touching song.
Female:
It bears happiness and sadness
Still, it remains silent
No one has yet learned
What life is saying
It bears happiness and sadness
Still, it remains silent
No one has yet learned
What life is saying
Sometimes like your own, sometimes like a stranger
Sometimes like tears, sometimes like laughter
Sometimes like a river, sometimes like thirst is how it seems
It bears happiness and sadness
Still, it remains silent
No one has yet learned
What life is saying
It is the soft sound of silence
This life is God's blessing
No one has touched and seen it
It is the fragrance of experience, it is a scented wind
Male:
It bears happiness and sadness
Still, it remains silent
No one has yet learned
What life is saying
Speak with your heart, listen to your heart
Choose a soulmate from the heart
The world may say anything, let go of the world's thought
Adorning them on your eyelashes, foster sparkling dreams
Female:
It bears happiness and sadness
Still, it remains silent
No one has yet learned
What life is saying
Male:
Sometimes like your own, sometimes like a stranger
Female:
Sometimes like tears, sometimes like laughter
Male:
Sometimes like a river, sometimes like thirst
Female:
Is how it seems
Male:
It bears happiness and sadness
Female:
It bears happiness and sadness
Male:
Still, it remains silent
Female:
Still, it remains silent
Male:
No one has yet learned
Female:
No one has yet learned
Male:
What life
Female:
What life is saying
~ dengan atau tanpamu ~ 3:29 PM
Everyone's Leaving
It's true that all good things never last. After 3 years in the team and getting really great friends, it is time to say goodbye again. I got the news that 2 of my closest friends, Razaly and Sudirman will be leaving the team and going to another department. They had asked for the transfer a few months back and I knew that this was coming. However, I tried not to even think about it because it certainly is sad news for me. The time has come and we've got 1 last tour to work with.
I was sad when Fairus left the team and now that another 2 of my good friends are gonna leave, I don't know how I will react to this. I might not have shown to you guys how close I am to you guys but trust me, you guys play a huge part in my life. All the sweet memories and fun time that we have had together in the past will remain in my memory. And Sudirman, I will never forget what you have done for me in the past. I needed someone at that point of time and you were there for me. You know what I mean bro.
I guess it's now left with Shahril, Dzul and Hirman in the team for me to hang out with. But deep in my heart, I know that this will not last either. Some time, some day, we are all gonna have to go on our own ways and different passage in our career / life.
What I hope for is that you guys will not forget me. And Sudirman and Razaly, I hope we will still hang out in the future.
~ dengan atau tanpamu ~ 3:06 PM
Thursday, December 08, 2005
The D Day
It was definitely D Day for Man Utd when they were knocked out in the group stage of the Champions League for the first time in 11 years. I woke up at 3.30am this morning to watch the match. Was surprised that Man Utd took an early lead after 6 minutes but they could not capitalised on the advantage as they went down 2-1 at the final whistle. Considering that Villareal won the other group match, Man Utd just needed a draw to qualify but the lads were not good enough. Even though i've been a Man Utd die-hard fan for the past 16 years, I admit that Benfica were the better team and deserved the win and also the qualification to the next round. It was a sad fact but its true. I was heartbroken with the lost and could not get back to sleep.
I managed to doze off for a while though and the short nap was worth it. In the short nap, I dreamt of my brother who had passed away 14 years ago. Well guys, he is the one person whom I loved the most and when he passed away, I did not go to school for 1 month. That was how bad his passing away affected me.
It was a weird dream. In it, he was very much alive and was spending time with me. The only thing was that he could not speak. When I woke up, I was smiling. It has been a long time since I dream about him and it came at a very good time. I was feeling sad about the lost and the dream just erased the sorrow.
Brother, you might be far far away from me but I know that in each of my movement and every little thing i'm doing, you are there with me. Memories of you will remain in my heart and soul till the day I die.
~ dengan atau tanpamu ~ 6:44 PM
Wednesday, December 07, 2005
Gearing Up For A Big Match
Was real tired from the duty last night all because of one very stupid, idiotic, brainless, no balls man. Got home and sleep till 7pm. Damn, I wasted another off day!
I woke up to log onto my MSN but shit, something was wrong with my internet connection. Must have been a virus I guessed. I restarted my PC and was relieved that it was ok now..
Anywayz, I will just be lazying around till 11pm before going to sleep. I'll be waking up at 3.30am though to watch the Benfica - Man Utd match. This is a match that we have to win to qualify for the next round and also if we don't qualify, we'll lose out on at least 15 million pounds. Considering the takeover from Malcolm Glazer and the fact that the club has a loan of at least 200 million pound, there is no way we can let that 15 million go..
Oh God, please let Man Utd win..They have always been part of my soul and when something goes wrong for them, it does affect me. That's how much I love the team guys..
All the best lads! Do the team proud and also win this game for George Best..
~ dengan atau tanpamu ~ 9:59 PM
Tuesday, December 06, 2005
Monday Blues?
The best thing about my job is the shift hours. There is definitely no such thing as Monday blues. Even though we do have to work on Monday morning once a month, it's not as bad as those on office hours. 4 Monday blues a month?!? Oh crap..
So it was a Monday morning for me and I was all gear up for a busy day at work. But hey! It wasn't that bad after all. Not as busy as I had expected. I'm just tired due to the hectic week that my team's having. I just can't wait to go to sleep. My eyes has been red and swollen since the past few days due to lack of sleep and boy do I look like a panda now!!
~ dengan atau tanpamu ~ 12:21 AM
Friday, December 02, 2005
Not Again!!!
Damn it! My eyes giving me problem again. Its just so itchy and swollen. And guys, I did not have seafood yesterday ok! :p
I've been having this eye problem ever since I was 5 and it has been a major reason why I was always on medical leave in school. Not that I didn't want to go to school but doctor's advice was and will always be don't be out in the sunlight or stay away from bright places.
Now here I am with swollen eyes again. Sad thing is that I have to leave for work in 40 minutes time. Guess it will be another irritating night for me..
~ dengan atau tanpamu ~ 5:57 PM